On the April 14 broadcast of 'Dr. Oh's Golden Clinic', rapper Wonstein met with psychiatrist Oh Eun Young to open up about his unhealthy habits, including anger management and self-harm.

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On this day, Wonstein revealed that he had suffered severe bullying during his school days. He began, "When you are in school, the school is your entire society. So I constantly thought, I need to give up on this life. As with most schools, there were kids at my school who were rough. They would walk by and punch me, hard. Hard enough to hurt."

The rapper continued, "They would slap me in the face or bang me in the head. It grew worse until I kept thinking how I just did not want to be in the same place as those who kept bullying me. I would force myself to sleep in class. When I woke up and school wasn't over yet, my heart would start racing. What are they going to do to me before school ends? I was hyper aware of my surroundings at all times, and whenever I glimpsed an opening, I ran from their sight." 

Hearing Wonstein's experience, Dr. Oh observed, "The only way to describe a classroom where school bullying occurs is 'hell'. Can you tell me about how many assailants bullied you during those days?"

Wonstein replied, "If I try to pinpoint someone who considered me his direct target, there was one person like that. But if I think about those bullies who generally had me on their radar and came at me when they saw me, it was around 20~30. I despised being in the same space as them. But there were so many of them around me, and I had nowhere to run to, so all I could think to do was to go to sleep." 

He added on, "In my head, I thought that if I just slept, they wouldn't really bother someone sleeping. Eventually, I found out I was wrong. At first, they just shook me if they saw me with my head down on my desk. But then, one day, they just came and smacked my head down so hard that it shook me." 

Furthermore on this episode, Wonstein shocked Dr. Oh and the cast members of 'Golden Clinic' by confessing his unhealthy habit of letting out his anger by harming himself. 

The rapper said, "When I get angry or stressed, I start punching the wall or a chair. I punch with the intent to break something in my hand. I do it thinking that if I get hurt enough, that will break me out of this uncontrollable anger. Once, on an unlucky day, I hit a sofa that was covered with a thin layer of leather, but the inside was something like steel. As soon as I hit it, I felt a strange click in my forearm, and I felt that something was definitely wrong. I could not fold my fingers into a fist. It did not getter for 2 weeks, so I finally went to the hospital. The doctor said that I should have come to the hospital right away instead of letting the injury persist. They said it was too late, and that there might be chronic damage."

Finally, Wonstein added on, "I tend to keep to myself, so I wouldn't do it if there was at least one person around. It's only when I'm alone that I can act freely and relieve my stress. My concern is not necessarily whether or not I should seek treatment for this. For me, I'm actually curious to know if it would be okay for me to keep living like this. It has been a coping mechanism, and it has worked enough to the point that I can smile and laugh in front of others. It's almost become a necessity in my life, so do I really have to 'treat' it?"