A letter written by Kim Sae Ron to Moonbin after his passing in 2023 has been made public.

On March 27, the YouTube channel Hoverlab (Garo Sero Research Institute) revealed a letter that Kim Sae Ron wrote to her close friend Moonbin on April 27, 2023.

In the letter, Kim Sae Ron wrote, “I’m writing a new diary entry. Bin, I miss you. What should I even say? I was in so much pain that I wanted to choose death. And then I heard the news about you.”

Moonbin tragically passed away at his home on April 19, 2023. The two were known to be close friends in the entertainment industry, having been under the same agency and co-starring in the web drama 'To Be Continued.' After Moonbin’s passing, Kim Sae Ron quietly mourned by changing her profile picture to an image of a dandelion.

She continued in the letter, “I know better than anyone how terrifying and lonely that decision must have been, so I couldn’t even ask why. That day, for some reason, I really wanted to see you. I wanted to call, but I didn’t. And I regret that. Maybe I couldn’t have stopped you, but could I have delayed it—just one more day, and then another? I try to endure by believing that if I live today, tomorrow will come, and I wonder if you could have done the same. My heart wavers so much. Every day, every moment, I think about following you.”

She went on, “I regret that I was too overwhelmed to be there for you more. I feel lonely, but if you ever feel lonely too, please visit me in my dreams. I want to grieve for you, to talk about you, and to honor you as much as I want, but I was afraid that my existence would somehow tarnish your passing. Even now, I’m scared.”

Kim Sae Ron also expressed her struggles, writing, “The industry, the media, and all these unclear criticisms about me not moving forward anymore, they make me feel disappointed and even hate myself. I chose this life, this career, so I have to take responsibility. My family is watching me, my fans are watching me. But you must have felt the same, right? The pain that began the moment we achieved our dreams, it wasn’t just me, was it? I wasn’t the only one who suffered in silence, rotting away inside. You must have endured every single day, too. We should have just let it all out and cried together at least once.”

She ended the letter with, “Rest peacefully, Bin. No matter where you go, I know your path will be bright and radiant. I respect and support everything about you—you were the best. I’m sorry I couldn’t praise you more and hold you in my arms. I love you, Bin. See you soon. I’ll be waiting. — Your friend and little sister of 18 years.”

Meanwhile, Kim Sae Ron’s family recently claimed through Garo Sero Research Institute that she had been in a relationship with Kim Soo Hyun for six years, from 2015 to 2021, starting when she was 15. They also alleged that Gold Medalist, the agency of Kim Soo Hyun, pressured her to pay 700 million KRW (approx. 477,000 USD) in damages.

While working part-time at a café during her self-reflection period, Kim Sae Ron reportedly pleaded with Kim Soo Hyun via text after receiving the legal notice, saying, “I’ll repay it little by little from every project I do. I’m not saying I won’t pay, but I just can’t come up with 700 million KRW all at once. It’s not that I don’t want to, I just can’t. Does this really have to go to court? Please, save me. I’m begging you, just give me more time.” However, Kim Soo Hyun did not respond.

Gold Medalist, which had previously denied the allegations of their relationship, later revised their statement, saying, “Kim Sae Ron and Kim Soo Hyun dated from the summer of 2019 to the fall of 2020, after she became an adult. The claim that he dated her while she was a minor is false.”

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